Yet another day to make the most of. No work, and an opportunity to be with the ones I love!
So we’re off to Lydiard Park, near Swindon. I’ve heard it’s a lovely place with a super duper play area for the kids, plenty of walking opportunities, don’t know what else. Another opportunity to Move effortlessly, to not stress about not getting to the gym, to enjoy a picnic, food chosen by me for me, rather than a horrendously expensive cafe!
The last couple of days have been a bit strange. I’ve been rebelling against something, but what, I’m not sure! I haven’t been following the Principles I now hold dear, stopping when I’m satisfied being the main one. I’ve gone that little bit further each time. Eaten out of boredom, out of frustration. And I’ve not wanted to listen to myself, to find out what’s wrong. I suspect it’s risen out of my evening of drinks on Thursday night. I still had some sort of diet mentality and was thinking “Well I’ve blown it now, I may as well not worry for a while”.
But the thing with Intuitive Eating, or Normal Eating as many call it, is that there is no “blowing it”, no failure, no starting again tomorrow. Normal Eaters have days when they drink too much, or eat too much, or both. Normal Eaters occassionally use food or drink for something other than fuel. And that’s ok. But Normal Eaters also listen to their bodies during and after these times, and in the times after they tend to notice the need for less food. Fact is, they may not actually notice. They just actually are led to eat less, and do it without any big drama.
But my journey as a Normal or Intuitive Eater is in it’s early stages, and alot of the time I am consciously going through the principles that then make me aware of what and how much I eat. I’ve got to admit. Sometimes it’s a drag! Sometimes I would much rather be calorie counting, or having days of various colours, or drinking sickly milkshakes because in the simplest ways these diets would make alot of things easier. Control would be taken away from me. I would be eating the right amount to aid weightloss, and I wouldn’t be having to question myself as to why I want to eat a particular food or volume because I’m upset or angry. If I was very “good” I would be able to suppress all my emotions for a few weeks on a diet! I would see weightloss and would be able to celebrate that victory!
And then the backlash would arrive, as has done so many times. All the weightloss would be brought back with several episodes of overeating. All those emotions I’ve crushed for so long in my bid to be “good” and “successful” and with “strong willpower” will bubble up to the surface. And I would have learnt no coping mechanisms to deal with these feelings. These diets, successful in quick weightloss, and rich in promises of healthy habits and healthier lifestyles, fail to deliver. Because habits have to come from a place of desire. You have to want to exercise, you have to want to eat less, you have to want to make healthier food choices. You have to believe and know in your heart and your head that you will feel better, happier, healthier and benefit from these changes.
This is why Intuitive Eating is so important for and to me. I want to reclaim the power for myself. I believe that I can make my own sensible decisions, and that somewhere deep in this noggin, I am capable of looking after myself and my own needs. Actually I want to feel healthier. I want to nurture my mind body and spirit. Actually I want to eat foods that benefit me in all these ways. Not because someone who’s making millions out of the diet industry has told me, and because they (think they) know what I should eat.
It’s because I’ve learnt from eating different foods. From the fry up to the feta salad! I’ve listened and felt how my body has responded to different foods. I’ve felt sugar slumps, caffeine cravings, and then I’ve felt the healing energy of a nurturing salad. Yes, on some faddy diet I would be eating a salad and benefitting from it. But I would be eating it because I’ve been told too, and I’ve been told I would benefit. It’s only through making the choices myself and listening to my body that I’ve really understood how much better I feel.
So today I shall continue trying to make those beneficial choices. The choices that make my body sing. I will tune in to myself at various points of the day. And live in the moment.
Have a lovely Sunday!